A Monkey Life...

WEI GUYS I AM BACK!!!!!

2010-04-16T05:05:00.001-07:00

WoW!!!! Waliao.... cant believe i still remember this blog wo!! Wakaka... mayb too boring d~~~ Crazy.... Saw my older post.... realli feel like... MANY THINGS HAD CHANGED WO~~ Many things happened lerh since 2010~~~ Whatever it is.... If i can i realli want write something here lerh~~But...... I realli dunno larh~~~ i am in the confused mood now.... very confused~~~ What I can say is like i lost in a island~~~ If i write too much things here... too girlyish barh..... KEEP IN HEART BARH..........

R.I.P MJ!!

2009-06-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

So shocked when i heard the news about Micheal Jackson.. I think the news about Micheal Jackson will make people around the world sad....I am not his super fans, but he accompany me since i was a child.. I love his music! His famous moonwalk! He is King of Pop!! and also a legend!! He very hardworking... He want to show all people his passion towards the music industry... I think people all respect him... Our world now lost a legend... Rest In Peace!! Micheal! We all love you!!!

Amanah Gang Gathering!!

2009-06-24T00:18:00.000-07:00

Wow.... i had been few months dint meet my secondary skul, I finally have a chance to hang out with them.... it also a farewell for our gang member, Yuen Ling... She will further study at Melbourne, Australia... And also for Wei san Birthday... So we hang out at 20th jun, at the Gardens Red Box for sing K.... We realli have great time!!

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The day has come!

2009-05-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

Just finished my final exam about 6 days... I got some feeling... That i might failed some subjects...Well, Thats true...

Today, I just get some called from my college...

Raveen: "Hi, Chin kuan, i am Raveen, This is a called from NIO."

" I know it"

"Sorry to tell you that you need to resit for Math 2 paper."

"Uhmmm, Okay, well, need to paid 500 for the resit paper??"

"Yup, You need to!"

Haiz, such a short conversation make me mad... What to do?? 500 gone. Luckilly i din spend all my money yet. I not surprise, Cause this is not the first time i failed.. Especially for math, I really hate math, for no reason.. Actually i gave up the night b4 i go for the exam.... Haiz.... I promise myself i will be more hardworking next time!! I won't failed any other subjects next semester!! I have more pro subject to study next time, like Clinic, PR, Optometric instrument, ocular disease..... Feel like i cant handle all these things.. Can i?? People always tell me to trust myself.. I tried many times. I can't... i know my biggest enemy now is myself... Then how?? Go killed myself?? Stupid!! Why i have all those stupid toughts? Paranoid... Always thinks so much!! No one can help me now, only myself!!

I really cant figure out what am i doing recently. I had no interested anything in my life.. Not a single thing.. Last time i used to interested playing online games, watching video online, hang out with friends.. But... Now i not interested in single thing.. My life just likeEMPTY!!

My soul had gone, no where, I cant get back my soul....... i try... Perharps one day, i might change... Hopefully.....

Well!! Good Night Everyone!!
Feeling better when i share all my feelings and put in my blog!!

Troubles

2009-05-05T20:55:00.000-07:00

She is cute.

She is caring.

She is very talkative.

She is funny.

She is lovely.

and She is childish.

She is my Grandmother. 82 years old this year. Lot of wrinkles crawling on her face, but she always look young for me. She softspoken. She always want grab our attention to her. She always do things that is unreasonable, funny and always want to my mom angry. But all these things are seem history of my familly.

Recently, due to her health condition, she had to stay with us. As first, i tot i was good to another familly member joinning us, but i was wrong, it actually causing a lot of trouble to our familly. Now our familly, had to take care of her from day to night. We bought her wheelchair. Now i suspect her Alzheimer disease, She now always forget things. She forgot our names b4, that made us more worry. We have to remind her plenty of time what had she done. Her attidude totally change now, she just like a children that keep complaining things, mumbling to herself, love to play games that even a child din't play. ( for example she love to collect tissue paper. -.-"") I think most of my friend that noe me well noe that i have serious familly problem, because of that, my parents always having bad mood... But still she still always talking loudly, mumbling, complaining she dun have food to eat, etc etc. My mom almost crazy, she want to sent her to old folk house. It seem so bad, but she din't. I noe my mom wont do tat, it just because the stress....

Yesterday, once i came back, i saw her almost falling down, luckilly i came back on time, she sat on the ground. Doing nothing. She can't stand up. Almost wanted to cry. I am so worried, and i cant do anything to help her. I saw her keep trying to stand up. When i want to help her, she will say dun worry, i will stand up myself.

....... 1 hour later she still cant stand up, i feel myself really useless, i want to grab her up and put her in the bad, everytime i help, she scream for pain... And she got osteoporosis, i scared if i use too much of energy will break her bone. So have to call people to help. I was thinking why i so useless.. zzzz...

Afterthat, after my sis bf helping her up, she was ok now. She come to thank me for yesterday, she was grateful that she was grateful that i was come in time, and she said i am the dearest grandson of her.. Oh my! What i had done?? i just stand beside and doing nothing.. Why she always proud of me... Proud of what?! Haiz, i feel very very sorry to her. Now what i can do is take good care of her..She always apologize to us, causing so much of trouble. I really understand she not purposelly. That is how kind my grandmom is. May the god bless her! Hope she healthly always.....

Meaningful words and picture

2009-04-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

Life is short
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling

Found out something really meaningful for us.. Hope u all enjoy it!
Good niteZzzZzz

Disaster finally over

2009-04-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

Wow, i am so buzyy!! till no time write any post in the blog!! Haiz, wondering why i always busy for exams, presentations and assignments.. ZzzZz... if got time also write blog.. haha, dunno wat topic to write... no energy to think what i suppose to write... well, i still got 2 exams have to go through.... My 2 "lovely" subjects math and computer programming! Wondering when can i have a break.. T__T.. some1 help me

So abstract

2009-02-15T05:12:00.000-08:00

Finally, Valentines is over. As usual valentines seem very normal for me, cause i still single, so i dun really even care. 14th February, i spent my whole day doing stuff. 6.00 am, force myself to wake up and be ready go to the college. 8.30 am, physiology class start, my classmates seem no time to think how to celebrate valentines. well, class going on until 4.00pm. lol, all of us going very tired and sleepy after Dr. professor swamy class and computer programming class. Dunno what these 2 lecturer talking about and i dun even care, coz i promise myself will revise back at home. 6.00pm reach home, first thing i did was open the switch of my pc, and bath. I cant wait to log in my msn, waiting someone to online and wishing her happy valentines, but i am very childish. Wait whole night, she din't appear, at the end, just gave up, and focused on my computer programming assignment. That's what is about the whole valentines for me, boring and dissapointed.

Something happen in college. I argued with my friends. For a reason, i am talking too rough to a classmates the she like. What the hell! i think people that know me really well know that i love to say 'eat shit', and this word i normally use it for joking. i din't know what had i done wrong. But i dun want to cause too much conflict, and at the end, i said sorry. But, i feel very unfair. i think this friend is really mad in love. Sometimes love help us to see things clearly, see a person's attidude. i very tired to have this type of friend. Love is so abstract and undefine.

Recently the news that surprise me the most the news about the Chris Brown hiting her girlfriend Rihanna. I wondering why Chris Brown want to hit her Rihanna, i thought love suppose to be loving each other, i think most of the guy want to protect her gf. Very very dissapointed with Chris Brown, he was my favourite singer.

Thats what about love, make ppl mad, making people insane, and causing people out of control.
But for me, it is better to learn how to love yourself before you love someone. Well, gonna continue study math, Tuesday gonna have exam again. Wish all the couples happy valentines altough it is a bit late

Good Nite Everyone!!

Happy CNY!

2009-02-02T06:39:00.000-08:00

Wow, finally Ox year is come! I really busy for these moment, working in world of feng shui for the whole CNY break. Well, that not that bad actually, i find out something happen that are good. I cant imagine that one of my customer whose i dealing with, can become 1 of my friend. I think she are 40+ years old, i was promoting all kind of zibead for her, and at last, we are talking many other things, she tell me about the course tat i studying now, and she said tat opthometry course are v good for me, and she told me to find her in singapore if i want find job, so i really cant belif it. So let see thing in positive way always, alotugh i spent my whole holiday for working, but i earn money and i get to noe friends.

Altough i this post is a bit late in the CNY, but i hope all of my friend happy CNY!

Gud nite!

Gossips

2009-01-07T07:39:00.000-08:00

WoW, finally i get into a job, becoz of this job, i had no time to online that often...

Guess what, i never tot that i can know so many friends, i mean all my coworker, treat really well, like Cindy, sook hoon, wilson, hong, derek, kiat, annie, and so so...

Well, maybe i shuld accept that fact that humans are not tired of talking Gossips. Bad things always come to me wherever i go, the true story is about the relationship thinggy again! Whenever i close to a gal, all ppl around me always said i fall in love with her, WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!

I am not that desparate want a gf! So? Now i think i got what i so called phobia about this gosip. But as a human being, we shuld accept this fact.. Don't we?

You are always in my heart.. rest in peace, my friend!

2008-12-11T06:08:00.001-08:00

I still remember you are still a little dogie when u are in the SPCA.. A 7 month dog, that gave some signal to me, i knew you are signaling that you want us to become your master, and indeed, we had choose you as our pet..

At first, you are a bit too scared about us, u still feel like we are stranger to you, but as time passes, you know we are your friends.

In 1st year, you are quick learner, you know what should you do at home and what should not. You know our family member well, although you can't speak, i know what you feel, what you think and what you want.

In 2nd year, our relationship are more closer and closer, you always make our family happy, whenever i feel bad mood, you are always stay with me, although you can't speak, you know what i think, you are always stay with me whenever i need you, although you are a dog, you are always my best friend, i always share my problems to you, you seem understand what i said.

In 3rd year, due to my careless mistake, i had lost you. You ran away from us, i felt very sorry you that time, but luckily we found you. You feel happy that time when you come back home, although you can't speak, i knew you are saying something to me, : 'i will never ran away from u again.'

But in 11th december 2008, you left us forever. I know you will never come back to us again, at these few day, you suffer a lot, i know it, really know it well, you cried, you know you gonna left us, you know we will gonna sad because you will left us. At last, you died, you go to the place of heaven.

Smurgly- This is my message that i want to let you know. Although you had gone forever, but our heart never never forget you. I will always remember the moment when you and me together, do you still remember? We always play hide and seek together, i treat you as my friends, or a little brother. You know i never never treat you as my pet, i treat you as you are my 1 of the family member. You are 1 of the familly member, now and forever.... Rest in peace, my friend!

After exam,

2008-11-30T05:34:00.000-08:00

Soon after the final exam, every1 was like, fly high.... Hazel that sit infront me during examination time turn her head over to me, have a wonderful smile... she said 'Finally exam is over, i was so happy!' the feeling really really great. Even the weather for that day was wonderful, everything seem to smilling at me...

After final exam, we went to Cyber cafe playing CS and Dota... i am expert in CS, but i am a novice in Dota... Lose so many time till i wanna cry!!

The next day morning, we all plan to go to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate Wuan Yin birthday, i was surprisingly she gave me small gift instead i give her 1st, SWT... she gave Lipice for men.. well, i have to admit that my lip is always dry.. and my friend keep teasing me that my mouth is big...
lipice did help me,lol.....

we went to 'kam kah li restorant' for food, then we eat cake in secret recipi.... Having my Capuccino Cheese Cake...

Does they look like couple???
Wow? want kill people merh?
What am i doing??
Angels? or Witches?

yeah~~~~~

Before exam.......

2008-11-30T05:25:00.000-08:00

Too free, nth to do in home, but these few day the old memories keep disturb my mind.... especially thing that happen before exam.....

We went through lot and lot of assignments, presentation, and EC1,EC2, and EC3. That i was in the hell, no time to have fun, no time to enjoy, no time to go for movie, but now things change up side down. Feel a bit not get use to it, coz last time was too many things to do, now is nth to do!

See, i was so happy when i finished my assignment....

I really hate math, but wat to do, i need to pass for my exam, haiz

'Light Bulb'

2008-10-25T22:05:00.000-07:00

After finished lots and lots of assignments and presentation, i finally have a rest. Was going to mv AGAIN! haiz, wat to do, i think tat shopping center is the only nearest to my college..

I cant wait to watch high school musical 3, but becoz of my FRIENDS! Have to give up tat chance and going to watch Bangkok Dangerous.

I tot was happy going to mv, but i was wrong. Going out with another 5 friends 2 gals and 4 boy's friends. Tat was some relationship between 2 pairs, the 2 gals and 2 boys. I getting really frustrated, , i have hard time, during tat time, i really feel i am the 'light bulb' tat time, so i rather i walk alone tat time.

i feel tats no problem to become single, but if we facing the situation above, did we really feel lonely, my friend there 2 pairs and the other guy got gf already, isn't it we will some how get jealous? watever, i do hate the feeling honestly, but well just hate going out wit pairs with couple..

but at least, Bangkok Dangerous is a nice movie...

Suvey

2008-10-10T06:05:00.000-07:00

Well, too many things come to my mind today! want to share to my friends!

Yesterday, was really a terrible day for me! never, never try this thing b4..Was doing the survey about my English assignment!! This is actually nth for me but the venue was in Times Square! have interview about 30ppl!

Tired, Tired and tired! me and the other 3 friends was walking in the Times Square, Floor per floor, from LG walk to 3rd floor, was really tiring!

KL really hard to find a ppl tat kind enuf to stop for a few minutes, litsen to wat we saying, finish the 20 questions for us, some of the ppl din even care us, and we still force to smilling to them..
Why we should so suffer? we din even get salary for this u noe? just the 20% marks for english..

something was happen when i was waiting my friend to do some stuff for us, 1 of my friend kind enuf to share some problems tat happen to me recently, she taught me wat shuld i do and she told me about my weakness... i was really feel relief when told her my problems... perharps shuld change my attitude... for a better life... and i shuld thx her

after doing the research, me and the other 3 friends went for 10th floor food court for meal, it was really feel happy actually, altough was tiring, but we gain experience!! But when i went back home, another thing tat suffer me again!! have to squeeze in the monorail and U73 rapid KL bus..
T___T

haiz, next week start exam! hope everything will going fine!!

Have to study anatomy d....

PD trip

2008-10-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

well, i love this picture!! Was taken with my sister in PD......

haiz,

2008-10-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

dunno wat happen to me... everyday seem the same for me.. and everyday the same things i will think about... wat shuld i do? just read an email tat my friend sent to me, it says "dun be so moody and dun think things tat make u moody, find the way to slove our problem, did we really can do tat.. some problems are very easy to say but very hard when we want to really do it. i want to share my problem to friend tat i very trust.. but now the problem is between me and her! so how? it really suffer me.. T__T"

My friends!

2008-09-30T20:16:00.000-07:00

"Happy Family"

Friends forever!!

me and hou tian wife

me and Soh hai (suet hooi) haha

exam over

2008-09-21T05:55:00.000-07:00

tired and tired, lazy and lazy... even to write this blog.... haiz.. finally i understand something.. quite moody today, and finally i got a task, TO FORGET SOMEONE!

Well, my amanah gang

2008-09-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

Amanah group!!

Gays group, except me

we both look funny..... hahaha

Group picture

Wating taxi!

ok, well i cant remember the date, i think was 22th december 2008.. and i just finish my exam, was tired tat day, after anatomy lecture, me and my NIO friends go mv for movie, and we watch death race, super nice movie!!

After tat i went to meet my secondary school friend.. and about 6++ then we went to OUG plaza for dinner, i agree with calvin tat place was SUX!! tat place full of mosquitoes and i hate it.. but at least we have memorable dinner..

memories in nirwana college

2008-08-31T05:07:00.000-07:00

so we are best friend forever!

jinli get bullied

thiek hoon, zi hao,and me

Lau's birthday

well, study from january to july.. it was many sweet memory in nirwana college, especially xuan li, yin ling are the 2 closest chinese friend since january, and march here come a whole bunch of friends.. like zi hao, theik hoon, lau, jinli, chen ling,jia hao, julie and thong.. very happy when i was with them actually, especially wuth theik hoon they all.. we play together, study together and etc.. and most of them are future doctors, going to study medicine, dentistry, and phamacy.. Now the sweet memories only can be left on my mind, all of us got our own route to study, and now most of them had gone overseas, just wish them good luck and always remember me.

Wow

2008-08-29T07:04:00.000-07:00

wow, it has been long time din touch my blog liao, this week really many things happen, 1st been through presentation, got lowest mark in biochem and math, and some arguement among jennie and friend, and many things.. life really like this, but as time passes through, we gain more experience, we grow, we become more mature.. we fall, we prepare to standback..
Just does not give up.. i got think of many things, future, love, friendship, family... but now wat??
just depend of faith... and let god decide all the things

exam its over, but i become crazy already...

2008-08-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

Haiz, today exam finally over, during this period, i crack my head.. Study things tat i never study b4, especially math, i dun even noe how to do some basic question, i think i gonna be dead liao.. Just hope anatomy, physiology get good marks..

I very regret last time dint study properly, well, time cannot turn over. so i really need to catch up my study now.. i also feel i change a lot, i use to become more emotional person, ya, i noe last time i was emotional person too.. Afer lunch i feel extremely no mood, then i just walk away and i dun k my friend.. haiz.. i too rude already, how can i do this to them??

luckily got some friend tat support me, like chee chiu, my "kai jie", my "honey", some secondary friend and college friend.. well, thx to u all tat keep support me and always there to help me
^^

My "sisters" in NIO

2008-08-09T03:35:00.000-07:00

Just 2nd weeks in NIO, i got a lot of friend there, the people are quite nice there, especially all the gals... they love to call me monkey... and treat me like a little boy.. they call me as they "kai didi" so maybe i shuld treat them as my sisters... I feel they extremely funny, today after havng our lunch, we went back to our college, they saw a banana tree and they felt very happy.. even happy then me.. SWT =.=" "waaaaaaaa, got a banana tree there, monkey shuld be happy la"
I answering "I not interested outside banana, coz i got plant some banana trees in front of my house, and i prefer more FRESH banana" we altogether laugh... SEE, how crazy we was...

Combination.

2008-07-31T06:45:00.000-07:00

The college just started the 4th day, and i start feel tension. Never feel such stress b4, even in SPM tat time. I hate many subjects, especially for chemistry! hate all kind of equation and the calculation and tat substance name... and suprisingly the college only start 1st week, the biochemistry already make me confusing and suffering. The 1st chapter is talking about Carbohydrate and i already want to faint! Lecturer starting to copy so many notes tat i even dunno wat its talking about. when the lecturer was explaning, i was like did i learn tat b4? wat the hell she is talking about? I dunno how i gonna continue to study... perharps i can ask all my senior to help me!

Being the youngest in class is not reallly a good thing, just like i say, i was stuck since the second class in biochem class, and i have much less experience then them...

2008-07-29T06:52:00.000-07:00

After forcing by my friend, so i write something here. Last time, i got plenty plenty things want to write it out and share with friend. But whenever got the blog, just dunno wat to write. SWT
=.=" ok, well, i think tis blog will become my dairy and i would like to share some interesting things in my life (if got).

Well today is 29th of july, is my second day in my brand new college. THONEH.. quite a funny name., stand for Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Hospital.. just feel nothing new here, coz b4 got study in another college b4, and i noe normally hows the college look like.

Altough I already leave nirwana only for 2 days, but then i really feel i miss some friend there. Altough we just met for few months, probably few weeks, but we are really close.. go for movie, go stay overnight together, and go for badminton. But now all gonna go oversea for study, so we have less opportunity to met.. Haiz, all gonna become future doctor, maybe they all will forget me next time. So by here i hope all of them good luck in thier study!

I feel like i am writting an essay for secondary school, hahaha, maybe i not get use to it.

A New Day

2008-07-28T07:34:00.000-07:00

well, never tought of can write a blog for my own, sometimes i really got a many tought want to share among friend.. now really got a chance to do it!